In 1885, during the Afghan War, Suresh obtained a job as a cashier in the military department that paid a monthly salary of two hundred rupees. He was assigned to Quetta, in the northwestern part of India. Before his departure from Calcutta, Durga Charan urged him to receive initiation from the Master. But Suresh had no faith in mantras or in God with form. After a prolonged discussion with Durga Charan on this point, they agreed that Suresh should abide by the wishes of the Master.
The next day both men went to Dakshineswar, and Durga Charan raised the question of initiation. “Yes, Durga Charan is right,” Sri Ramakrishna said to Suresh. “A person should practise spiritual disciplines under the direction of a guru. What prevents you from admitting this?” “Sir, I have no faith in mantras,” replied Suresh humbly. “All right,” said the Master. “Do not worry about it now. Everything will come in time.”
….. One day in 1886 Suresh went to see Sri Ramakrishna at the Cossipore garden house. The Master was then bedridden because of his illness. He asked Suresh: “Where is your doctor friend? He is said to be a good physician. Tell him to come here sometime soon.”15 Seeing the fragile condition of the Master, Suresh could not bring himself to ask for initiation. Instead, he went home and informed Durga Charan that the Master wanted to see him.
Suresh repented for not having followed his friend’s advice about asking for initiation. After the Master’s passing he lamented and passed the nights in prayer and meditation on the bank of the Ganges. One night he fell asleep while crying to God on the river bank. Before daybreak the next morning he got up and saw that Sri Ramakrishna had come out of the water in his luminous form and approached him. The Master uttered a mantra in his ear. As Suresh was about to take the dust of Sri Ramakrishna’s feet, he disappeared. (Source: They Lived with God)